11 painful things

1. bringing back the feeling you've  learned to forget
2. reminiscing the good times
3. trying to hide what you really feel
4. loving someone who loves another
5. having a commitment with someone you know would not last
6. shielding your heart to love somebody
7. loving a person too much
8. right love at the wrong time
9. taking risk to fall in love again
10. accepting that it was never meant to be
11. "what ifs"

I am Me...

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

....

People change so that you can learn to let go,
things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right,
you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself,
...and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together

Sesekali

sesekali jadilah kawan yang mendengar
dari yang hanya bercerita
ambillah masa untuk memahami hati
dan perasaan kawan
kerana dia juga seorang manusia
dia juga ada rasa takut, 
ada rasa bimbang, sedih dan kecewa
dia juga ada kelemahan dan
dia juga perlukan kawan sebagai kekuatan
jadilah kita kawannya itu
kita selalu melihat dia ketawa
tapi mungkin sebenarnya
dia tidak setabah yang kita sangka
disebalik senyumannya itu
mungkin banyak cerita sedih
yang ingin diluahkan
disebalik ketenangannya
mungkin tersimpan
seribu kekalutan
kita tidak tahu...
tetapi jika kita cuba
jadi sahabat seperti dia
mungkin kita akan tahu..

Love...

if you love and miss that person
then love can come again when you meet again
just like playing hide and seek...
no matter where it hides or even if you can't see it
it must be waiting at some place for you
amid the countless chaos...
just like the sincere prayers of love
the people in love will surely meet again...

The Other Side of Me

you think you know me pretty well,
but how can you tell,
you never get inside my head.
the times we talk, we never speak,
we play hide and seek,
so many things are left unsaid.
why can't u see,
what's on the other side of me,
the side of me that reaches out to you,
sweet thoughts and dreams.
like drops of rain on rippling streams,
that wind and bend,
rivers with no end,
flowing on the other side of me.
it seems i always get unstrung,
i trip on my tongue,
with words that come out somethin' else,
i'm so afraid the things i say,
might chase you away,
i have to hide behind myself.
why can't u see,
what's on the other side of me,
the side of me that reaches out to you,
why must i hide,
these feelings that have been denied.
only u can set me free,
see what's on the other side of me,
i have to hide behind myself.
why can't you see,
what's on the other side of me,
the side of me that reaches out to you,
why must i hide,
these feelings that have been denied.
only u can set me free,
see what's on the other side of me,
on the other side of me,
on the other side of me.

-Neil Sedaka-

My New Obsession: Barut Baby

last night bertungkus-lumus menjahit barut baby smbil tunggu hubby balik dari LIMA Langkawi.. ni semua sebab akak kat opis yg ada bisnes on9 jual barangan baby..nak collaborate katanye..hehe.. tp selain tu, aku memang minat menjahit pun.. cuma takde masa je.. 

tadaa! ni la hasilnya..comel kn?haha! tp tak kemas sgt sebab ni saje2 nak try je..ala2 teaser gitew! 

enjoice!

The ALL New ME!~

After being with R&D Department for 3 years, me & my 2 other colleagues have been transferred to our NEW department in Puchong (HQ).................................................................

"GROUP MARKETING & PUBLIC RELATION"

...and my life changed 360 degrees ever since..from Science to Business..what would you expect in the first place?

NEW friends..

NEW boss..

NEW environment..

NEW work field..

After doing PR for a year, now I've been transferred to the new department..again..

"CUSTOMER SERVICE CENTER"

...on temporary basis..however, it's quite fun though, as I volunteered to be in this team for a Pilot project..hehe..

RUDE caller..

POLITE caller..

CONFUSED caller..

UNIDENTIFIED caller..

caller with SOFT VOICE..

caller who REFUSED to give their details..

etc..etc..etc..

that is the kind of caller that I attended everyday..

but again...

NEW friends..(xbermakna yg lama dilupakan..hihi..)
OLD boss..(sebab not officially transferred to CSC, so still reporting to GMPR eventhough da xbuat pape keje PR da..huhu..)
NEW environment..
NEW work field..

***okeyh..off to answer the calls! miahaha!~

1 Year of Silence

it's been a year already..seriously, blogging is for a person with 24 hours of internet access + extreme interest in blogging +  FREE time..LOL

ME? guess I don't have any of the above except for an intermediate interest in blogging to express my feelings and share my opinions..